Repent at leisure

I can’t believe I’m actually going to do this, I thought, as I signed my name at the bottom of the contract.

That was three weeks ago.

Three weeks ago, I was certain, positive, resolute about what I wanted. There was no doubt in my mind; none whatever. I had put up with the status quo for fifteen long years and had decided to take it no longer.

Now, I’m not so sure.

Now I realise that if I’d spoken about the things that annoyed, upset, distressed and frightened me, instead of keeping them all inside, I may not have ended up where I am today.

What made me do it? I don’t know. It was probably only a small thing; something that I’d normally shrug off, but as time passed, minor irritations had been festering inside for so long, that they became major issues. As a small crack in the wall of a dam can become a catastrophic fissure under the constant pressure of tidal flow, so the incessant crushing weight of annoyances caused something in my mind to crack. And I paid the money and signed the contract.

Three weeks later, the contract has been satisfied, the deed done.

Had I known then what I know now, I would never have signed the paper; never have handed over the money. I wouldn’t now be alone. I would still have a wife.


This week's challenge at esthernewtonblog.wordpress.com asked for a story containing the words, "I can't believe I'm actually going to do this, I thought".

2 comments

  1. Stepheny Houghtlin

    New to your blog after finding your reflection, I am impressed with the results of your story. This is a different look at a prompt, which I am used to in writing groups where people write for ten minutes, share, move on to their work…a chapter or something…that is being discussed. I will look into the link you have shared. I assume there is a word limit to this exercise???? I love what you came up with here. Fun!

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    • Keith Channing

      There’s no word count this week, Stepheny. Esther’s challenges vary week to week – we’ve had some with a count of ten or twenty words, some including mandatory words. This on just wanted that phrase in it somewhere. Just for fun, I issue two challenges each week – Kreative Kues on Monday asks for anything prompted by a supplied picture, and Albert & Jarvis is intended to be a collaborative story.

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